Don't Hold Back
May
13
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5/13/2010 7:06 AM
This is an early-entry for this blog. When God inspires, there is no way to contain it.
Yesterday was a struggle. I was functioning on about four hours of sleep. If you know me, that usually means that my emotions are not easily contained. My mom told me once that she could always tell when I was tired because I cry so easily. If I am to be totally honest, I try to keep my emotions restrained most of the time. I suppose when I am tired, it’s too hard to keep those walls up. Yesterday I fought the tears the entire day.
So after putting in a full day at work, one would think that I would just want to go home and crash. I’ve been gone from home every night this week, which is totally out of character when my kids are home. Usually those weeks are reserved for kid-time. Four hours of sleep…full evenings…sounds like a recipe for taking root in the recliner at home. But, there was a restlessness that I couldn’t explain. God was telling me that there was band practice and I needed to be there.
“Really? I’m dog tired. I shouldn’t be gone another night.”
“No. You need to be there.”
“Yeah, but…Ghost Hunters is on tonight.”
“You need to go.”
“American Idol?”
“Go.”
“Uncle.”
Fighting the guilt of being gone from home on the one night I had free, I packed in Nikki’s van and fought heavy eyelids all the way to practice. What happened there was pure inspiration. God reached down and touched every finger, each vocal cord, every heart and spirit. As the music played and lyrics of a new song formed, I looked around the room at the faces of the musicians. Every face was pure bliss. The six of us had become seven. God was right there in the room with us…arranging it all.
There are times that God nudges us. We may not understand why. We may question whether it is our own desires that compel us to do something. We may ask whether it’s wise. We may doubt. We may be afraid. We may dig our heels in and say no. (Note to self: The last guy that said no to God’s urging found himself becoming very intimate with Sushi…see Jonah 1:1-17.) But, oh! When we let go of our own doubts, fears, and questions; when we allow God to direct and lead; when we say “ok” and take that step into the unknown…GOD’S POWER IS RELEASED. Mind you, God is able to do anything. He doesn’t NEED us to fulfill His plan. But, He invites and urges us to be a part of it, because when we are—we experience Him in a whole new way.
Is God calling you? Don't hold back. (And that's the name of the new song. Catchy, huh?)
2 comment(s) so far...
Re: Don't Hold Back
I am braught to tears while reading this, I am usually just as guarded with my emotions as well. As I read about your evening I am reminded how God uses the perfect moment to get the job done. I mean think about the people who will be reached because you listened and went and was able to come up with a new song. And "six became seven" wow what a true statement to the evening! God id so good- all the time. I love how when we losten and respond to him we get to see it. A true reminder to NOT HOLD BACK
By nikki on
5/14/2010 10:36 AM
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Re: Don't Hold Back
I think the feeling is just the adrenaline of being in the band. Many talented people together always creates inspiration. A built in spirit provided by God...enhanced by a God given talent ... inspired through the holy spirit.
By Jeffrey on
5/14/2010 10:36 AM
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