Jun 28

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6/28/2010 9:21 AM 

I was watching a friend’s boys play together the other day.  The older one had something he wanted the younger one to look at.  Unfortunately, little brother was a bit more engrossed with his own toy.  After several pleas for his attention, the older one in total frustration, placed his hand on the younger one’s forehead and pushed his head up so that he would have no choice but to turn away from his own hands to see what his brother was showing him.  “LOOK, Caleb!”  He demanded. 

I was thinking about that little incident this morning.  You know what I discovered?  I am Caleb.  There are things that I focus on so intently that I don’t see or hear what is being communicated to me.  I sit in my own space, and look down at the questions, fears, and worries that I’m holding on to in my own hands.  In my hands, I’m holding things like bills that I don’t know how I’m going to pay.  I’m holding on to regrets—things that I wish I hadn’t done but now I’m not sure how to correct.  I’m holding on to past pains and hurts—things that people have said and done that have left a scar on my heart.  I’m holding on to old habits that I can’t seem to break.  I’m holding on to lies that have been whispered into my soul. I’m holding on to “I can’t,”  “I didn’t,” and “I should have.”  I’m holding on to selfish independence and fear of being alone all at the same time.  I’m holding on to doubt.  I’m holding on to insignificance. 

 

God says, “LOOK.” 

 

I wonder if He ever wants to take my face into his hands and force my eyes to look into another direction.  (Sometimes, I wish He would!) 

 

On Saturday, I went on a bit of a road trip with the band.  We had a day-long discussion on band names.  The discussion eventually led to looking up some Bible verses.  The verse that has stuck with me ever since was Jeremiah 29: 13:

 

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

 

In other words...

 

“LOOK.” 

 

The answers may be closer than you think.